Going through yearly site maintenance and contemplating migrating servers later this year. Feels overdue to wreck my shit, you know?

Also getting real fuckin’ sick of Alphabet Inc. and will be slapping the downloads into a badly formatted webpage rather than continuing trying to rely on the Google Drive.

The problem with the drive is that it intermittently revokes visitor permissions for no reason. So I have to regularly check to make sure it’s even accessible at all. This is a problem because I’m lazy and don’t regularly check it.

Being that the Asylum takes up barely any of its allotted server space, it kind of doesn’t make sense to keep wasting time arguing with the barely functional G-Drive when I can just. Be barely functional on my own terms.

That out of the way, I’m officially 8 weeks post-op. Content warning for photos of surgical incisions, although they’re mostly healed at this stage.

Taken around 6-7 weeks post-op, shortly before my final follow up with Dr. Lo.

_{It’s also been 5 years since I started HRT back in February of 2020 (COVID-19 was an unrelated coincidence, I swear).}

Sometimes I think about how small my life is, this surgery was a huge milestone, but for the team who facilitated it? It’s literally just their day job, I could be interchangeable with any one of hundreds of patients they treat every week.

Every single person I meet is more important to me than I am to them in every conceivable scenario.

Who else up feeling melancholy at 3am?

A couple of weeks ago I gave myself food-poisoning and had a brief moment of mortality, hunched over the bathtub, choking on my own vomit, where I was acutely aware that if I died nobody would notice until the neighbours complained about the smell.

But I digress.

The final post-surgery follow up was on Monday the 10th and took all of about 2 minutes. Dr. Lo removed the dressings and put them in the bin, it was low-key ceremonial but only to me. After checking the incisions he took a couple of photos and that was it really. Ongoing maintenance at this stage is scar management; massage, moisturise and silicone treatments.

Felt weirdly naked without any dressings at first, even though they went under clothing and weren’t visible at all. Still a bit numb in a couple of spots so maybe that’s been more apparent without the compression?

Total healing time is expected to take around 18months, but I’m cleared to ease back into normal activities and resume regular exercise. Being immersed in water such as taking a bath or swimming is also permitted now. Not that I can actually swim at all but, like, you know? It’s the thought that counts. Still forbidden from sunlight but my vitamin D levels didn’t exactly get this low from routinely spending time outdoors.

That’s all, good night.